The months and years we have been are wonderful, exciting, full of love and sometimes I just can’t get enough of your love that whenever I fall asleep at night the butterflies inside my stomach gone wild, cheeks is like near to burn because of blushing. Why? why? why? your impact to me is superb that even books or even Athena can’t explain this and I even come to the point imagining things, making checklist just to make everything perfect and I like it in your little way you makes me happy. We’re so happy right? right? But I think it’s only me who is afraid of losing this relationship, afraid to be set apart, afraid to forget how happy we we’re, afraid to be forgotten and afraid to lose you. It was Sunday morning 6:00 a.m. and I just can’t stop smiling to have this perfect day.
The house is very busy that morning my four sisters are helping me to make everything is precise and perfect on this special day.
“Hey sissy how’s your morning we’ve prepare your breakfast already” Elma said while smiling she is our eldest sister.
Seeing my sisters helping me makes me tear up a little bit sad to say mom and dad are not here to see this it would be perfect. Afternoon that day everything is all set up and all I have to do is for me to get ready.
I wear my sleek royal blue dress which Dale gave in our first year, that makes me smile and to have a sigh to remember that day. My attention suddenly diverted to my phone ringing and seeing the name of my best friend Elsie that makes me sad I thought it was Dale.
“Hey Lorry? Are you done? We are all set in here and you only have to come down and call Dale.” Elsie said.
“Uh yes just wait a minute.” I reply.
There are lot of things running through my mind which give me chill in a moment but I keep positive to make everything is going to be ok.
Half of hour have passed but there’s no sign of Dale’s presence that makes me sad at the moment but I keep myself to stay still and think of maybe’s, maybe he’s on traffic, maybe he stop to buy a gift, maybe he stop on the gasoline station Ughh! I really hate this feeling. But All of my hope is drowned and felt very disappointed at the moment, I’m calling Dale over thirty times but there’s no respond and my friends and my sisters keep me felt good but my tears are traitors they just keep going and I just felt so wasted and just let it call it for a day and it’s so sad to hear it.
There’s no sign where’s Dale to find that day but that night I receive a text message from but in myself there’s a hesitation for me to open that message.
“Sorry Lorry I think we should just take a break in ourselves if we’re meant to be, time and destiny will find our way back but if it’s not, let just accept it. Don’t think this is a bad idea because I’m doing this for you, for me and for us I know you can find a man who is lot better than me I’m sorry to tell you this I know this is such a shame for me as guy to step on your pride but goodbye Lorry.”
After reading his text tears are flowing again and my hands are shaking while hugging my pillow just to ease the pain a little bit but it’s not working the pain I felt is indescribable it’s like my heart stub by a million knife that any moment it will break apart.
“Dale Why? All of the sudden happiness becomes sadness? Love becomes burden? I thought we we’re fine? I thought you love me the way I love you, despite of all the things you’ve done all I did is to forgive even though it hurts, where did I messed up? But what should I do? This love is superior to any emotion I have that time, I should felt angry but because of the love I was blinded and just forget, forgive and hope this will not happen again. But I was wrong I think twice is enough, you already broke my heart and leave it into pieces enough is enough let just forget each other I think this is the best way to help me to move on”. I reply Dale.
After I text him he call and I accept it but I didn’t said a word I wait for him to start the conversation because I still don’t have the feeling to felt good and to be calm at that moment.
“Lorry I know you are mad and I’m sorry for it I know I’m such a jerk hope you understand. I know it’s not easy for you and it’s not easy for me too I hope you can understand.” He said in the other line hearing his voice makes me longed for him and at the same time I’m very sad but anger is really what explain what I felt that time.
“Dale please explain how could you do this to me? I know it’s not easy for me and for you but I hope before you made this decision you think how I should feel! Did you know how this break up really affects me? It makes me think that all my efforts and to do everything is useless, just shit I’m so dumb. I hope you’re happy because starting today sleepless night, muffin and red eyes is what I can get.” And I end up the call.
It’s been 6 months since me and Dale broke up honestly it really affect me, I forced myself to forget but I can’t my heart is so stubborn to cooperate with my brain and because I think too much about Dale and also my studies I didn’t notice it’s already November and Christmas is coming it’s way. All of the sudden I just smile while remembering the times that I and Dale spent our first Christmas together in their house we’re so happy that time that feeling that you want all of it to flashback and just repeat itself.
“Wake up Lorry” I said to myself and reality hit me and here I go again crying with the same reason, for God sake Lorry.
It’s the first day of December, and I’m so excited to witness the church choir singing in the street of our village and people gathered together to welcome the Christmas season. They do this every first day of December up to 24 and I just love staring and listening to them as I watch them in my terrace and while listening to the sweet voice of the children makes me forget my problems for a while and just be happy.
“Lorry let’s go!” Mom said.
Mom and dad just arrive last week of November to celebrate Christmas together because they will be back in New York after Christmas.
“Yes, mom” I answer.
Me, Alma, Lora, Almay and my mom are going to the mall to buy some Christmas decorations and also to buy gift’s to their nieces and nephews. We arrived at the mall at 8 in the morning and mom tell us to have breakfast before to go shopping we’re thankful to hear it because we’re so hungry already and I admit mom will notice the monster side of me when it comes to food but I kept myself to be formal and eat just the way my mom does. After eating breakfast we head immediately to the decors but I think my tummy is overwhelmed with the food I ate and it’s aching.
“I will go to the comfort room for a moment mom” I said.
“ok but don’t be too long we still have something to do after shopping.” Mom said.
“ok” I reply.
I run immediately to the free cubicle and take my time, as I was washing my hands there is a girl beside me who is combing her hair, and sort of she’s having some retouch that any moment her face will be full of powder because of her make up but I admit she’s beautiful but I think she need to back it up a little bit. As I was thinking about her physical appearance I didn’t notice that I’m staring at her at the whole time and damn our eyes met and I think she’s angry, like what did I do?.
“Hey! Excuse me do you have any problem with me?” she said with her right eyebrow raise like an arc and it gives me shiver a bit.
“uh uhmm No! I’m sorry to stare at you” I reply and I immediately run outside the comfort room.
There is a familiar guy wearing a denim clothes I don’t want to assume that it is the same guy who hurt me over this 6 months but I’m wrong it was Dale and I just froze in my feet staring blankly at him.
“Lo…Lorry? Is that you?” Dale said in a smile on his face which makes me feel upset and angry at the same time, and makes me think that his happy without me sad but you could tell to his face.
I didn’t make a sound or utter a word only a tear respond to his question and I stare immediately at the ceiling for a while to stop the tears to flow at any moment now, to stop conversation I simply answer.
“ah yes it’s me I didn’t notice you…uhmm by the way I gotta go” and I immediately run to the exit of the mall and ride a taxi and go home.
I text mom that I got home already because I didn’t feel good at the moment, and she believe in my excuse I thought I’m fine, I thought I’m good enough to start another chapter of my life without him I’m trying my best but why is it it’s so hard to forget him.
That feeling when you actually met in an unexpected moment and to see him for a long time feels like all the pain that he cause all of it got flashback all of the sudden which I feel it’s still fresh and it hurts me so much that at any moment I might kneel in my knees because I can’t handle the pain and pressure of my emotions. In the middle of my silence my phone ring for incoming call I read the caller its Alma so I answered it immediately
“Hello Alma” I answered.
“Hey! Come here immediately, where are you by the way? Get your ass here faster!” Alma said in a panic tone.
“Hey! Chill for a while what’s with the rush Alma?!” I ask her because I feel there something bad happen because she’s in the rush and it’s not natural to her to act that way.
“mom has been sent to the emergency room she got a heart attack while we’re having a lunch.” She said.
I got froze to what I’ve heard in what Alma said so I immediately get the car key and rush to the said hospital just to know what is the condition of my mom right now. As I was walking in hallway going to the emergency room I saw Alma, Lora and Almay outside the room where mom confined and I run to them and ask.
“How’s mom? Is she okay?”
“We still don’t have any idea what’s mom condition. All we can do is to wait to the doctor” Lora said while hugging Almay to comfort while crying.
After several minutes the doctor open the emergency room and I immediately ask her.
“Doctor how is our mom condition is right now?”
“She is now stable and she only have to rest for couple of weeks and she can go home because it’s not a heart attack it’s only an allergy, so don’t worry your mom is in the right hand. You can now enter the room but stay quiet because she’s still sleeping” the doctor said.
“Yes doc no problem.” Almay answered.
When we enter the room we saw mom sleeping in her hospital bed I’m so happy it’s only an allergy attack. We’ve waited for mom to wake up before I go home and pack some of her clothes and after packing mom’s things I ask our driver to the hospital and I head up immediately to my room and lay down in my bed and sleep. It’s almost midnight when my phone is ringing I just ignored it maybe it’s a prank call again but no matter what I do or ignore it still calling me and it really bother me because I’m having a rest if this call won’t I think I will curse whoever is if this is a prank.
“Hey! Who is this make sure this is not a prank or else I will call a police and trace your phone immediately and get you to jail!” I said with my angry and irritated voice.
“Hey! Hey! Relax it’s only me Dale I’m sorry to disturb you.”
“What do you want?! And by the way thank you for noticing that you are disturbing my sleep!.” I reply.
“Uhmm I just want to say…I’m sorry for everything I did.” He said in his soft voice.
“I’m done with it and I think 7 months of sadness is enough and I think seeing you today is the last time I will cry with the same reason”.
“I’m so sorry Lorry. So are we still be friends?” he said in a joyful tone.
“Dale, don’t act like there’s nothing happen I know that you know what I’ve been through after you leave me hanging in the thread. Yes we can still be friends but it’s not like before, and I hope you understand.” I said and I ended up the call just like that. How dare he, I know I’m such a bitter person right now but I think I made a right decision…I think we’re better of friends.
It’s been two weeks after Dale called me and he never bother to call or even text and it’s kind a weird why do I feel like I miss him?. Its 10 .a.m. in the Wednesday morning and I’m here at the mall just roaming around, buy some stuff just making myself busy because when I wake up the whole house is empty my four sister is not there and also mom “maybe they have somewhere to go important this early morning”. I said to myself. I stop for a while in a coffee shop to refresh my mind a little bit.
I order a beldam chocolate cake and a chocolate frappe just the same thing I usually order and buy when I feel down. As I was sitting and eating my food there this a cute little kid gave me a cute red envelope so I immediately open it and read what’s in it “please go to the cashier and receive a gift.” Whooah this is really weird I don’t know but my feet lead me to the cashier and to my surprise the cashier handed me a box of Ferrero Rochet chocolate my favorite chocolate and after that I go out in the shop clueless.
Here it goes again another kid handed me an envelope but this time it’s color blue and the letter says “Go to the teddy bear shop you will meet someone”. And the kid just run out of the blue so I go to the nearest teddy bear shop I roam around and a saleslady gave me a human size teddy bear and I’m so shocked and at the same time I’m wondering where do this gifts came from and I want to thank him or her and I want to ask why is he or she giving me such gifts it’s not even my birthday and it’s not even Christmas yet. After I receive the gift I go out in the shop and notice another envelope left in the rag in the entrance of the shop so I pick it up and read what’s in it. The letter says “go upstairs and see me there, if you want to (” “yes of course” I said out of the blue and immediately I run upstairs of the mall I reach the half way of the stairs and so shock to see Alma and she blind folded me and here I go again clueless about everything happening around me, Alma guided me to the stairs and I think it was Almay who handed me bouquet and I hear Lora singing my favorite song and mom is playing the violin together with dad playing piano.
I’m so shocked and at the same time overwhelm for what I’m seeing right now the I saw my mom, dad, my four sisters so this is what they are up to that’s why they are not in the house in this early morning and at the end of the piano where dad is playing I saw a familiar back figure of a guy and to my surprise it was Dale holding a microphone and he start singing our favorite song when we we’re still together.
Tears of joy are flowing to my eyes and I can’t hold it back because of the happiness I felt right now there is lot of questions running to my mind all this time and all of it is answered. To see Dale on his knees kneeling while holding a box, to see him with tears makes all my burden and pain fade away. My mom, dad and my sisters are all in tears and I’m pulling Dale to go up but he held my hand and ask.
“Lory I know I’m such a dumb guy to waste such a extraordinary girl like you for you to know I regret all that I’ve done and I’m sorry… and for now I want to fix the damage that I’ve cause in your fragile heart and to spent my life with. Lorry Therice Grace Smith will you accept this ring and marry me?” he said.
“You know I can’t just accept that and forget all your mistakes but this heart is always and forever be with you. Yes Dale Austin Collins I’ll accept your offer to be you Mrs. Lorry Therice Grace Smith Collins.” I said.
And after I said yes the people at the mall are shouting and congrats us with smile and applause and by now on my old self is back and I’m ready to start another chapter with Dale and happy to be back again.
Written by: Leah Helarie Bustamante Sardan
Submitted to: Mr. John Paul G. Mancawan
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